Lok kok Glamour

What has caused the things that changed? The things we share, the things we feel. It has become apparent that the distance has increased. You were my best friend, you were my channel to release my frustrations while you give me advice. I was the same to you am I not?

Do you not know me enough to know that my friendship is real and pure? Do you really think my friendship is for some messed up reason because someone has an opinion of me? Was that enough to justify your understanding towards me? I really want to ask you so many but I fear that the questions will drift you further. I treasure this friendship or what is left. Do me a favor, tell me why this is the way it is now.

Just some thoughts that went through my head when I realized that things are no longer the same.

When things change, people change and life changes with everything that comes along with it. But do we know the reason? Not every one. Thus, FML.

Another lousy day at work. Lost myself for a moment there..

Got off a train, unknowingly drifted and ended up waiting for the door to another world opens..
I know this sense of space is what i need. Yet I contradict myself.

Lost a deal today due to my poor handling in a candidate and a client.

Note to self: Do the liaising on your own.

Went through too many channels and dragged too long until the candidate lost her confidence in the hiring company and it all fell through. Did all I could and gave the candidate all the details, it just HAD to be to her disadvantage. Worst thing is, i was so stressed up by my boss and a colleague "my Ah bu" that i couldn't express myself properly and ended up having a lecture from them. Felt shitty cause they had to point out my weak points like me not replying in confidence and keep on going like " I Think, blah blah blah" "I Think , Blah blah" and she actually gave me the "you thought, I Think, WHO CONFIRM?" treatment. That was the ultimate ouch and i sort of exploded and blabbered nonsense.. bah, to think I though I can handle stress.

Feeling bad and I hope this wont screw my exams.

Finally went back to boarding after the long break because of my incompetency in earning doughs after leaving that shithole.

Felt great and I was lucky it was a damn solid weather day. 1st session was crappy though, nearly drained all of my energy just by cutting the waters cos the damn waters are so choppy. Great view of Hot chicks and Hot Dudes racing past us every now and then..

The guys dunno how to use my cam.. so this is one of the better pics..

The pic of the day! The God's Hand!

Nick was doing damn good on his 2nd run. but damn he dislocated his left arm! haha.. But all was good as its his old injury and we quickly plugged his arm back into his sockets. haha.. Oh ya.. a note to everyone - Do not drink too much carbonated drinks when ur on a damn speedboat. I freakin puked and nick was like.. OMGWTF!! WHY DID I SEE YOU PUKE!!! NOW I FEEL LIKE PUKING TOO!!!! then I was like.. bhahahahahahhaaaaaaaaa......

Looking forward to the next session with the guys. The next time I want to be sure they take pics of me flying higher! Wakeboard is still my passion, although I have to admit, paying for it hurts a little.

I tell u.. Gimme 10 digits with 1 winning number. I can pick out 9 and still not win.

Or hell, gimme 1 out of 2 and i still wont win. Its like my luck has all been sucked dry by someone/something.

No one in JAC has worst luck then I do. I challenge anyone who says so.

As of rite this moment, I'm sitting in MacDonald practically just wasting time. with my lappy and a coke. Since I'm not as atas as before since i joined JAC. I Guess having a cuppa in starbucks with my lappy ain't that "Refreshing" anymore. But then again having the same damage in Mac actually filled my fat nakama(My best friend, Tummy). And Altho no atas chix to look at, I get to see ladies walking around in singlets. haha.. i think this might just work.

I wish i was like 5 yrs old again. they actually give out free ice cream cones! Altho the thing is cheap.. but hey its free.

Back to work after a long break. Reservist holiday camp and all. Kind of a sucky day, my mind was all over the place. I cant focus, i cant organize.. practically the whole day went past in a blur. Gotta pull my socks up and get my act up. FIGHTING!

Still thinking if getting confirmed after probation earlier then planned is a good or a bad thing.