What has caused the things that changed? The things we share, the things we feel. It has become apparent that the distance has increased. You were my best friend, you were my channel to release my frustrations while you give me advice. I was the same to you am I not?
Do you not know me enough to know that my friendship is real and pure? Do you really think my friendship is for some messed up reason because someone has an opinion of me? Was that enough to justify your understanding towards me? I really want to ask you so many but I fear that the questions will drift you further. I treasure this friendship or what is left. Do me a favor, tell me why this is the way it is now.
Just some thoughts that went through my head when I realized that things are no longer the same.
When things change, people change and life changes with everything that comes along with it. But do we know the reason? Not every one. Thus, FML.
Puzzled
Lost
Another lousy day at work. Lost myself for a moment there..
Got off a train, unknowingly drifted and ended up waiting for the door to another world opens..
I know this sense of space is what i need. Yet I contradict myself.
Reflecting
Lost a deal today due to my poor handling in a candidate and a client.
Note to self: Do the liaising on your own.
Went through too many channels and dragged too long until the candidate lost her confidence in the hiring company and it all fell through. Did all I could and gave the candidate all the details, it just HAD to be to her disadvantage. Worst thing is, i was so stressed up by my boss and a colleague "my Ah bu" that i couldn't express myself properly and ended up having a lecture from them. Felt shitty cause they had to point out my weak points like me not replying in confidence and keep on going like " I Think, blah blah blah" "I Think , Blah blah" and she actually gave me the "you thought, I Think, WHO CONFIRM?" treatment. That was the ultimate ouch and i sort of exploded and blabbered nonsense.. bah, to think I though I can handle stress.
Feeling bad and I hope this wont screw my exams.